October Grounding

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

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What worked in September

  • dancing in the morning

  • rest

  • accepting my creative block (not fighting it)

  • playing Stardew Valley more than normal

  • doing fun things

  • leaving to-dos for later

  • Tarot!

  • being brave

  • letting go of outcomes

Next time I might

  • continue with sprints (working on a project just for one week at a time)

  • drink more fluids on the weekend

  • the day ends at 9 pm, that's it, period.

Qualities for October

Grounding. Receptive. Connection. Relax. Shielding. Spaciousness. Roots.

Things I'm working on

  • receiving guidance

  • softening

  • developing my Cosmic Heart

Looking forward to

  • art fairs

  • autumn colors

Asking and hoping for

  • fun

I'm ready for

  • letting go of who I think I am

  • guidance

  • reclaiming

Month of Joy

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

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What worked in August

  • BUBBLE MAPS still saving my life
  • waking up at 5.30 in the morning to make time to dance before work
  • rest
  • nourishing myself
  • burdock and hawthorn infusions
  • doing fun things
  • leaving to-dos for later
  • doing sprints (working on a project just for one week at a time)
  • accepting reality and meeting myself where I am
  • preventing headaches with menthol salve
  • being open to receive help and clarity

Next time I might

  • continue with sprints
  • drink more fluids on the weekend
  • the day ends at 9 pm, that's it, period.

Qualities for September

Joy. Let Go. Light. Nourish. Adventure. Fun.

Things I'm working on

  • leveling up my tech skills
  • my biz
  • job search

Looking forward to

  • creating
  • feeling more me
  • feeling like my spirit is rested
  • more flowers on my plants!

Asking and hoping for

  • fun

I'm ready for

  • shedding
  • happiness
  • soak up the good stuff

The Devil Brings Clarity

I love it when the Devil appears in my Tarot spread.

 From the  Mona Lisa Tarot , artwork by Paolo Martinello

From the Mona Lisa Tarot, artwork by Paolo Martinello

The Devil has a pretty bad reputation and doesn't look that nice - browse the designs for the Devil card on albideuter.de and you'll see some terrifying figures like the Christian devil, Baphomet, Hel, Kali, Ammit, serpents, dragons, even Cthulhu. Many designs feature a man and a woman chained to the Devil, trapped. Sometimes it's obvious that the man and woman are Adam and Eve from the Old Testament.

I like to remember the Devil's name, Lucifer. It means "Light Bringer" and also refers to the planet Venus when it precedes the sunrise. A star announcing the sunrise - doesn't that sound nice? Not gross or scary at all.

 The  actor playing him on TV  looks pretty nice, too, amiright

The actor playing him on TV looks pretty nice, too, amiright

Let's re-interpret the Garden of Eden story, keeping in mind what "Lucifer" means. Lucifer offered Eve knowledge and self-awareness, which she accepted and then shared with Adam. Christianity heaps a lot of negativity on her for deciding to pursue knowledge and self-awareness, but can we consider Eve and Adam's decision as just naturally human, and important to growing up into mature adults?

The Devil invites us to ask:

  • What am I scared of knowing about myself?
  • What am I scared of knowing about the world?
  • What's holding me back - inside and outside?
  • What facts am I scared of accepting right now?
  • How can I explore my fears safely?
  • Can I engage my fears without judging myself?

When pondering these powerful questions with gentleness and care, even the scariest-looking Devil won't seem as scary.

August Light-Bringer

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

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What worked in July

  • BUBBLE MAPS oh my god, bubble maps saved my life
  • waking up at 5.30 in the morning to make time to dance before work
  • rest
  • nourishing myself
  • burdock and hawthorn infusions
  • comforting my Body when I'm upset
  • doing fun things
  • Tarot
  • redirecting my thoughts
  • thinking of depression as an injury that I need to heal from, rehabilitate myself

Next time I might

  • do a Tarot reading right when I start to spiral into Circular Thoughts Town
  • replace uncertain outcomes with my own outcomes
  • do sprints - a week focusing on one project, then a week focusing on another
  • continue with bubble maps

Qualities for August

Clarity. Light. Rebellion. Obstacles Removed. Illusions Dispelled.

Things I'm working on

  • my biz
  • job search
  • tidying

Looking forward to

  • art fairs
  • flowers on my plants

Asking and hoping for

  • hope itself

I'm ready for

  • casting off
  • clarity
  • certainty

July Flow

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

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What worked in June

  • I never thought I'd do this - wake up at 5.30 in the morning to make time to dance before work
  • having one goal to focus on
  • wearing my garnet bracelet to remind me to focus
  • menthol salve for headaches
  • fun stuff: watching Miss Fisher and Sailor Moon
  • switching to a shampoo bar
  • saying no
  • burdock infusion
  • chores on weekdays
  • Monday Tarot, of course
  • going for jobs
  • being courageous!
  • re-ordering my compass with Nourish at North

Next time I might

  • plan for tomorrow at 9 pm
  • when I hesitate to do something, ask why
  • keep to my loose schedule

Qualities for July

Flow. Reflection. Reduction. Relax. Recover.

Things i'm working on

  • finalizing my portfolio website
  • getting a new job

Looking forward to

  • new job
  • getting stuff done
  • my plants growing

Asking and hoping for

  • support
  • continuing towards my desires

I'm ready for

  • lasting good habits - flowductivity ^_^

Focus on June

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

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What worked in May

  • setting aside time to plan tomorrow
  • creative stuff Monday through Wednesday and job stuff Thursday through Sunday
  • Monthly Tarot
  • sitting with my fears and honoring them
  • dancing regularly again
  • watching new dancing videos
  • choosing nourishment
  • letting go of what I didn't want
  • making an effort to have fun
  • using Clip Studio Paint!
  • menthol salve to keep headaches away

Next time I might

  • do ablutions at 9
  • job stuff for one hour, then do something fun
  • keep to my loose schedule

Qualities for june

Focus. Let Go. All that doesn't serve me falls away. Freedom! Yes to my yes.

Things i'm working on

  • making this portfolio website!
  • getting into bed at 9.45 to have a good night's sleep for getting up at 5.30
  • [somewhat secret project]
  • moving on!

Looking forward to

  • choosing someone to help me
  • my plant babies sprouting! A few have come up already <3

Asking and hoping for

  • a new way to spend my time during the day!
  • continuing towards my desires

I'm ready for

  • moving on to something amazeballs